well, no. & i posted an ask about that a little bit back but also, can you tell me the things about her that would make one think i would like her? bc i’m pretty sure those things aren’t my problem w/her, at all. & i want to kind of hash that out, bc i get how like, you know what? supporting fellow emotional unapologetic messes is important. but i have problems with her parenting. & i feel okay judging that only because of the options she had & has, & because of how she made her shit about her DAUGHTER so perpetually public.
but again, i want to be able to offer nuance on this. i’m hard on emotionally selfish mothers who choose to be mothers because of their own needs, & fail to make choices that are solely about the life they have created. for very good reasons, but very personal ones.
anyway, yeah. talk more about this, if you’d like.
white dude being ‘alternative’ or white dude being ‘alternative’
if it came down to just that, nirvana ‘cause no matter how i feel about courtney love and her emotionally violent parenting style i’ve always gotten the impression that as white dudes go, kurt cobain was extremely fucking decent
but, if i think of it like, white dudes singing about their feelings = boredom tears, well green day at least has a fighting chance. or, actually.. no. ‘cause i just googled them to refresh & tbh like, even though kathleen hanna (who i adore though only on certain levels anymore) was in one of their songs & there are these like connections but all of it actually makes me feel kinda uncomfortable about green day & it’s members? like when a group of men has a woman come in to do small stuff sometimes it feels weird to me. that’s just a feeling w/no concreteness to it but, still.
so, yeah. nirvana, despite the cl connection, because i haven’t heard a single thing about kurt cobain that didn’t make me go, “wow, he was a really fucking decent human.”
also as an aside this feels kinda like this one time at a party where this dude kept naming either cities or sports teams to see if i could name the corresponding city or sports team despite how i hate sports & etc.
by which i mean it feels like a dude quiz about dude stuff? right, ppl who would know? (aka other girls who that happens to)
that’s probably exactly what i’m trying to do
i am with a very nervous energy-picking-up-on kinda dog and i am trying to be calm for his sake