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Anonymous asks: where do ya live that youre taking the lirr???!

i’m trapped on LI for the month because i’ve failed at life

babylon line but not babylon but like i don’t feel like posting the town i grew up in on tumblr? but yeah

i just made a very poor but fun choice about cigarettes

i just made a very poor but fun choice about cigarettes

#overhearingbrosonthelirr

#overhearingbrosonthelirr

mariahcareypictures:

2000.

i feel like Mariah and i share a body type and that makes me happy

mariahcareypictures:

2000.

i feel like Mariah and i share a body type and that makes me happy

i’m on the lirr and i wrote this out to post on facebook and it was gonna end with me both thanking friends for patience & asking friends to reach out to me when possible over this month ‘cause i’m really gonna need it, and then i got to the last paragraph that i got to & realized i was definitely gonna chicken out. here mostly for personal reference.

so it looks like I’m stuck on LI this month while I get my shit together. which sucks & I have very clearly had a lot of depression feelings about it but, it’s okay. sometimes things are hard but it doesn’t mean you have nothing, and it’s not ideal but it’s fine.

I know I get very, what probably seems like dramatic, for someone with a roof over her head and friends who love her. it’s mostly about fear, for me, because my mental health is never really truly stable and my ability to keep it in check is absolutely the single key to my survival. I know, and anyone who knows me knows, I’m really smart and capable and competent. and I have a lot of practical support available to me, more than I need, and I always have.

I’m not yet ready to fully own and confront and face down any one comprehensive diagnosis, half because of personal feelings and half because the associations with my one comprehensive diagnosis are beyond what I can push through, yet. that means I keep making vague references to “my mental health” and that combined with my tendency towards drama means I come off like this vague, unhelpable mess.

this is why we floss regularly, kids

this is why we floss regularly, kids

wake up at 4 in the afternoon have trouble remembering what the point of your life is drink coffee try harder to remember

also also i know i won’t shut up abt this but i only just got to a place where i can even respond to it, i used to just delete that kinda stuff & feel icky or not delete it & feel icky? depending on the day and how i felt. and sometimes now that i have the little shreds of self that let me kinda bs about it for a bit, it can help to really dig into that. yeah. it’s silly, but.

and also okay just to keep being really self-involved (like lol what else do i do on here/ever/i suck/lol) it’s a shame bc i mean, like every time i fucking menstruate i spend at least 2 days looking in the mirror and going “god damn,” and i take a lot of pictures that look great and like i know from posting pictures of yourself and ratios of validation to harassment and have assessed the ups and downs and there is a clear line where it’s not worth it anymore, at least for me, there’s like a huge jump in gross shit from dudes with certain things and i just don’t have the emotional capacity for it and, it’s a shame. i wish i did. it’d be fun. men are disgusting, the world is frequently disgusting, etc.

yousaytheydontcare:

tell me if you have an ello i am bunbunbark

also if you want an invite, tell me, even though i feel like most ppl who wanted them have it already? but

also like yeah, I KNOW, i have mirrors and pictures and can look down and they’re attached to my chest, so i am very aware!! i’ve had legit roughly 18 years to make that assessment (puberty: it doesn’t care if you’re 8) & just, i concur.

so if you’re looking to spread the word, i am a silly place to start. my tits are nice. i know!!! maybe start with ppl who’ve never met or seen me, because they would be overall the most unaware? your current approach shows a lack of planning & forethought, ngl, & i am here to help

Anonymous asks: nice tits

an anonymous message on tumblr is basically like a random stranger coming up to you and saying something. it could even be like you’re reading something or just emoting loudly in a public place, and a random stranger who happened to notice comes by and says something. which, that can be so totally fine, and even good! random people sometimes say some interesting, kind, and great things.

this is not that, though.

would you go up to a girl who doesn’t know you and who let’s be real, you don’t know, and tell her “nice tits”? if you would that’s a problem and if you wouldn’t you need to stop thinking this is different, ‘cause it’s not.

the last purchases i will be able to make for TIME were in the juniors section of macy’s which i did not see coming but um

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